A Calling to Serve
It’s been a few days since I’ve last blogged and I have been going non-stop without a minute for myself until today. I want to fill everyone in on what’s going on.
The past couple of weeks has really showed me there is a such a thing as divine circumstances and has reinforced my belief that there is no such thing as coincidences. Before I get into the happenings of the past week I need to take several steps back.
I moved to NYC with a three month contract lined up for a marketing gig with the option to make it a full-time position and become a partner in the start-up. It didn’t take me very long to realize this was not the job for me. I did my best to reach my goals, but it was a daily struggle. When the project wrapped, it was mutually decided (kinda) that I wouldn’t continue.
I was very scared for about a day. New place. New city. No job. But of course it was a blessing. I wanted to create a NYC life like I had in Atlanta. Lots of freelance gigs in marketing, writing and photography - making my own schedule and selecting projects that I was really into and allowing me the flexibility to dedicate myself to spiritual work. Somehow I had a limiting belief that I couldn’t make that life for myself in NYC and I needed a full time job. That was just fear talking and I’m glad the Universe knocked me back on course.
When I was between gigs, my dearest NYC friend, Louisa, hooked me up with a family to do some babysitting for quick cash. It was a lovely family with 18 month old twin girls and a 6 year-old angel. I fell in love with the entire family - fast.
Within a week or so I luckily had tons of freelance work pour in on all fronts. Literally more work than I could handle. I really didn’t need to babysit for income, but for some reason I always said yes when they asked for help. I genuinely loved them and I didn’t want anyone else taking care of these kids I fell for.
About 10 days ago they were rocked. The dad went to the ER with what was thought was a stroke, but within a week he was diagnosed with a brain tumor (myoma), had surgery and returned home.
During this time the family’s mom was at her husband’s side around the clock. Family came in to support but there wasn’t enough bandwidth to manage the twins and the six year old without major disruption. I gladly put my life on hold to support them however they needed. I’ve been with them anywhere from 6-12 hours a day for the past ten days taking care of the kids, preparing meals, grocery shopping, etc.
Not to mention they were MOVING apartments this week. Just crazy.
It’s a very rare one has the opportunity to infiltrate someone’s home during a time of chaos. To be intimately involved with caring for the most precious parts of the family unit. To maintain love, compassion and normalcy when everyone has the right to be scared shitless.
The father - who is the primary care taker - cannot lift the kids or be left alone because he is prone to seizure for the next six weeks. He is starting radiation next week.
This family is extremely grateful that I have stepped in. The father who is in recovery is constantly asking ME how I AM! It’s crazy!
But I have to say I am really the grateful one. I am so freaking grateful to be able to help and support these people I care so much about. It is such a great opportunity to truly be in service. To help make this time as comfortable as possible for these little people who cannot begin to understand the gravity of their circumstance.
If I had the full-time job I would have never met them and I certainly wouldn’t have been able to move my schedule around to pitch in.
I am so blessed to be able to have this exercise in childcare. It’s like mommy boot camp and I got thrown in without much training.
I’m most excited because somehow I know this experience is guiding me to my true life’s purpose. I’m not 100% sure what it looks like, but I think it involves children and consciousness work.
My challenge for you is to look at the people who are brought into you life, even those who are unexpected. There is an opportunity for you within those relationships. They are not there as an accident. See what relationships allow you to be in service of some kind and rise to the occasion. It will really enhance your spirit.
I will also challenge you to follow your intuition. Somewhere inside of me I knew this family was going to be a meaningful part of my life. Even though I was exhausted from my freelance gigs, I always felt called to babysit for them. Little did I know that those Thursday night date nights were building the foundation for me to step in and make a profound impact when the moment called.
I’m going to try to get some rest….but your prayers for them are appreciated. Please also keep me in your prayers. Please pray that I can keep showing up for these people in the way that is most supportive with a positive attitude. Also, please pray I have the stamina to keep my life going, because sometimes I am just. plain. spent.