I’ve gotten a whole lot out of New York. In a way, this city gave me the space to claim parts of my womanhood that could’ve remained stunted in Atlanta. There was a lot there. Old relationships that required healing, people to do things for me so I didn’t have to be as self sufficient and bunches and bunches of friends who ensured there was never a dull moment. However, that also kept me from really looking hard at myself and my areas of growth. I didn’t ever have to wrestle with loneliness. I never had to wonder if I could make it on my own. I wasn’t tested in a lot of areas.
New York is where I came of age.
And the work. Man, being a nanny for three kids (including twins) for a family with the father battling brain cancer confronted me with mortality and crisis at levels I had yet to encounter. Being counted on as a strong and consistent figure in that context stretched me in all kinds of ways. Helped me to see clearly part of my life’s purpose while coming to terms with the something I denied for a long time: I want to be and mother and I’m going to be a damn good one.
But it’s time to part with New York. I’m grateful for the masters class at life. The rootlessness that sprouted ingenuity. The loneliness that birthed bravery. The string of men who forced me to find the sacred within.
I’m grateful for the new faces who filtered through and highly effected my life. New York was certainly a pivotal and life expanding experience for the past year and a half.
I’m moving back to Atlanta in three weeks with a deep sense of completion. I’m going back to my community and close friends. Back to really emerge myself in this awareness training that keeps the spark of transformation in my life. Following my true heart and true passion right back home to where I started.
I’m arriving as a new person to a new place. Atlanta will be nothing like how I experienced it before. My lens has changed and so have my priorities. I’m humbled by the amount of magic and synchronicity that coalesced to make this such and effortless transition.
See ya soon Atlanta!